Wednesday, March 6, 2013

I. Need. Sun.

Well, it snowed. Again. I'm done with it! Give me at least a peek of sun, please!!!! I'm starting to get desperate here!!!!! I'm to that point where all I want to do is sit on the couch and do nothing. That's not good. I have dishes that need done. I'll do them later. I have clothes that need washed and folded. I'll do it later. I have a house that needs swept. Eh, later. This is getting bad folks. I do believe I am solar powered and my batteries are getting very low. I need some sun to revive me!

What makes it worse is that I can't even sleep during the night. Since I'm not doing anything during the day my body isn't tired and it wants to stay awake all night long. I know this because it was 3:00 in the morning the last time I looked at the clock and I had to get Hubby up at 4:30 to get him off to work. Yes, I went back to sleep at 6:00. But, I woke back up around 8:00. I'm not one to function on 3 1/2 hrs sleep. I'm an 8 hr type girl.

I've had a lot of things on my mind lately too. Big bills coming due and no big money in sight. One of the perils of having a farm I guess. I normally don't worry about stuff like that, but last night it hit me. We have to come up with a lot of money and in just a little bit of time. Taxes, tags, and bills due to people that it was promised too. I don't like being in this position. I like all my bills paid.

I'm not telling you this so that you can feel sorry for me. I know we all have been in this place before. And, I'm sure we will be okay. I'm telling you this because I want you to know that it's not all bunnies and baby goats around here. There's a lot of work and stress that comes with owning a farm.  If you're planning on getting your own farm one day, make sure you are ready for these types of stress. It will be there. That and the sleepless nights that come with it. (Question: Why is it that on those sleepless nights the husband can rattle the windows with his snores? I mean, he was lucky he didn't get a pillow pulled tight over his face last night. I'm just saying. :-D  )

All in all, things are are going good here on the farm. We are all fat and sassy. (emphasis on the fat).  We should be having another kidding at anytime. This birth will be one that we've been waiting on. We want to see how these kids will look. Mom is one of our better muscled does. Dad was our normal buck that we have used.  We have a list of people wanting these babies. The thing is, if they are as nice looking, the way we want them to be, we'll want to keep them for our own herd.  It's another decision we'll have to make.  I'm voting on keeping them. hehehehe

Well, I've rambled enough to you today.

So until next time,

Small Farm Girl, tired.


Carolyn said...

I've got the sloth bug too. I don't want to plant, garden, do housework. This cold weather is getting to me. I need spring weather and sun and warmth!!

Good luck on getting "rid" of the kids. It's so hard when you know you need to sell some of them to pay the bills, but when you see one that looks GREAT, you wonder if you'll ever get another one that good.

Donna. W said...

Hang in there. You'll make it through!

Unknown said...

I can feel your words...knowing we are in the same boat! We are already feeling the cuts! What next? Things have a way of working out...hoping this comes your way. This kidding will be the one! Hope you get some zzzz tonite! Thinking of you!

Sandy Livesay said...

Hey Sweetie,

Hold on, things will get better. Generally you don't see it while you're going through trying to pay bills, but it will get better.

As for hubby sleeping, I could do the same darn thing to mine, lol. He sleeps like a rock, snores so loud, I can hear him on the other side of the house. I believe he sleeps so well because he gets out of the house and goes to work. Our men work and deal with stress, so when they get home all their work stress gets left at the front door. Our stress stays with us because we work at home, don't have the opportunity to walk away from it.

Candy C. said...

I hope you are able to get some much-needed sunlight to recharge your batteries! I hear ya' on the sleep thing, I was up at 3:30 this morning and there will be no going back to bed. :(

Henny Penny said...

I love your posts! I can relate to everything you said. Why is there so much more to worry about in the middle of the night!!It's usually around 2 A.M. when I finally get up, eat a piece of bread, drink a little milk,and take an advil!!Hope you have a happy day!!

small farm girl said...

Thanks guys. You all make me fill so much better! :)