Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Too Stubborn For My Own Good

Sometimes being stubborn is a good thing.  Sometimes being stubborn is a bad thing.  This time it was a dumb thing.  For three years now, I've had knee problems.  Some days I couldn't even stand for more than 3 mins.  It was excruciating getting out of bed in the morning.  And if I didn't sleep "just right", my knee would wake me up in the middle of the night screaming for relief.  I've mentioned my knee a few time to my Dr, but I've always told him it would be fine.  I just need to take some more aspirin or ibuprofen.  For 3 years I've not been able to walk up to do the feeding of the animals without riding my four wheeler up the small hill to where they were.  I couldn't hardly get out of the truck at times because I knew when I'd slide down to the ground (Its a tall truck), I'd feel a stab of pain in my knee and possibly go to the ground myself. For three years, I put my farm life on the back burner because I couldn't do anything.  It's one of the many reasons I sold my goats.  It wasn't fair for me to have animals that I couldn't take care of.

The Dr. prescribed me some steroid pill to take.  Me being stubborn, I refused to take them.  I don't like taking pills if I don't really have to.  I would be fine.  Well, it got to where I really couldn't do anything.  I had gained MANY pounds, my back started hurting, my other knee started hurting. I was going down hill fast because of lack of activity.  But, I couldn't help it.  I COULDN'T do anything.

Last weekend was the last straw.  I was standing in Lowe's with Hubby picking out things for our house and I had to leave and go sit in the truck.  I couldn't stand and look and I could hardly walk.  Plus, I had to go grocery shopping after that.  After grocery shopping, I barely got through the line before I was almost crying with pain.  At that moment I decided I wasn't going to live like this.  I didn't want Hubby taking care of me like I was an invalid at the age of 41.  I didn't care what I had to do, I was going to do something.  So to begin with, I would take the steroids that the Dr. prescribed to me.

So on day one of the steroids, I was to take 2 pills before breakfast, then one after lunch, one after dinner, and then 2 before I went to bed.  Then I  was suppose to gradually decrease the amount of pills per day until I was done.  Well, after the first 2 pills,  I felt sick.  I means pukey sick.  I'm not one to get sick to my stomach, so this was horrible to me.  I thought I had made a mistake.  What had I done?  I sat down and wished this feeling to go away.  Breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out, for about half an hour.  Then............

I felt WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!  No more pain!!!!!!!!!  My knees quit hurting!!!!!!!!  My back felt better, my legs quit hurting, and I felt years younger!!!!! What WAS this wonderful feeling?  I hadn't been without pain for so long it felt strange, but yet, wonderful.  I keep using that word. Yes, it means what I think it means. (hehehe) But that's the only way I can describe how I feel.  The next pill was the same but the sickness didn't last as long.  I still felt wonderful.

I'm on day 4 of the pills.  I've lost 5 lbs just because of all the stuff I've been doing.  I'm hoping this feeling is permanent.  I hope I don't go back to the way it was.  If I do, I might just have to check out the black market for steroids. lol.  Okay, I won't go that far, but I do know that I can feel better now.  I know that the pain is not the way that I have to live.  Would I have liked to do it the natural way, yes.  But sometimes, you just have to do what you have to do.  I also know now, not to be so stubborn.  Sometimes the Dr. does know what he's talking about.

So until next time,

Small Farm Girl, pain free, finally


17 comments:

T Harley said...

Sometimes .... You gotta do what ya got to do ???.... I to hate to think I must be getting older?(56) not .... But I can still work circles around them "snot nose" kids ... So to speak, it seems to take alittle longer to do but I still getter done ... Hahaha .... Really I'm not a old dude
"T"

Carolyn said...

I'm glad that you were able to get some relief! I bet feeling NO pain was quite a shock. Don't beat yourself up about taking meds/drugs, it's not like you're shooting up heroin just to get a buzz, you're trying to LIVE without pain and look now! Whoo hooo!

small farm girl said...

T, buy the way you "talk", I can tell your not old. Lol!!!! Especially since you can out work those "snot nosed" kids. Or is saying "snot nosed kids" making you sound old? Hahaha!!!!! :-D

small farm girl said...

I'm glad too! I should have done it a long time ago. I just hope it keeps it up!!!!

JMD said...

Be sure and take the steroids with food....then you won't get nauseated. My prescriptions always say take with food. Anything, yogurt, banana, whatever. Good luck and I hope you get to feeling better. :)

SciFi Chick said...

So glad to hear that you're better! I know first hand about not wanting to do what the Dr's wanting you to do. They gave me 2 options and I didn't want to believe that there could only be two (terrible) choices. So I found another Dr. So far so good. And the outcome won't be as terrible as I first thought.
You gotta do what ya gotta do!
Sci

Michaele said...

Steroids are miracle workers aren't they? I don't blame you for hesitating, but I am glad you finally found some relief from the pain. I hope things continue to go well. Yes - you are way too young for this kind of thing.

small farm girl said...

I know that..... Now. Lol!!!!!!!!

small farm girl said...

Sci, I'm thinking about doing the same thing.

small farm girl said...

Why thank you Michaele!

Sandy said...

Small Farm Girl,

How fantastic, you're feeling better and your knees don't hurt like before.

I so understand not want to take medication, I hate take it too. But do so because it does help with the pain especially when the barometric pressure changes.

small farm girl said...

I understand about the pressure. I'm gonna try and keep this knee pain at bay. Like I said, do what I gotta do. :-)

Bob from Athens said...

Wow, I have been thinking that my knee pain was just part of getting old, almost 70, then I read todays post and thought that the first paragraph was describing me. So LOOK out Doctor, here I come !

Kellie from Indiana said...

Congratulations! Positive thoughts for you!

small farm girl said...

Thanks Kellie

small farm girl said...

Thanks Kellie

Anonymous said...

i'm sure the doc ordered an MRI but if not, then get one. you don't want bone rubbing on bone.
you might need a knee replacement.
don't let it go too long. makes the surgeon's work harder.
glad you feel better. had to take percoset once for back. then understood the drug addict. wouldn't let those pills out of my sight. carried them around in my brassiere in case of fire or flood!!
deb h.