Sometimes being stubborn is a good thing. Sometimes being stubborn is a bad thing. This time it was a dumb thing. For three years now, I've had knee problems. Some days I couldn't even stand for more than 3 mins. It was excruciating getting out of bed in the morning. And if I didn't sleep "just right", my knee would wake me up in the middle of the night screaming for relief. I've mentioned my knee a few time to my Dr, but I've always told him it would be fine. I just need to take some more aspirin or ibuprofen. For 3 years I've not been able to walk up to do the feeding of the animals without riding my four wheeler up the small hill to where they were. I couldn't hardly get out of the truck at times because I knew when I'd slide down to the ground (Its a tall truck), I'd feel a stab of pain in my knee and possibly go to the ground myself. For three years, I put my farm life on the back burner because I couldn't do anything. It's one of the many reasons I sold my goats. It wasn't fair for me to have animals that I couldn't take care of.
The Dr. prescribed me some steroid pill to take. Me being stubborn, I refused to take them. I don't like taking pills if I don't really have to. I would be fine. Well, it got to where I really couldn't do anything. I had gained MANY pounds, my back started hurting, my other knee started hurting. I was going down hill fast because of lack of activity. But, I couldn't help it. I COULDN'T do anything.
Last weekend was the last straw. I was standing in Lowe's with Hubby picking out things for our house and I had to leave and go sit in the truck. I couldn't stand and look and I could hardly walk. Plus, I had to go grocery shopping after that. After grocery shopping, I barely got through the line before I was almost crying with pain. At that moment I decided I wasn't going to live like this. I didn't want Hubby taking care of me like I was an invalid at the age of 41. I didn't care what I had to do, I was going to do something. So to begin with, I would take the steroids that the Dr. prescribed to me.
So on day one of the steroids, I was to take 2 pills before breakfast, then one after lunch, one after dinner, and then 2 before I went to bed. Then I was suppose to gradually decrease the amount of pills per day until I was done. Well, after the first 2 pills, I felt sick. I means pukey sick. I'm not one to get sick to my stomach, so this was horrible to me. I thought I had made a mistake. What had I done? I sat down and wished this feeling to go away. Breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out, for about half an hour. Then............
I felt WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! No more pain!!!!!!!!! My knees quit hurting!!!!!!!! My back felt better, my legs quit hurting, and I felt years younger!!!!! What WAS this wonderful feeling? I hadn't been without pain for so long it felt strange, but yet, wonderful. I keep using that word. Yes, it means what I think it means. (hehehe) But that's the only way I can describe how I feel. The next pill was the same but the sickness didn't last as long. I still felt wonderful.
I'm on day 4 of the pills. I've lost 5 lbs just because of all the stuff I've been doing. I'm hoping this feeling is permanent. I hope I don't go back to the way it was. If I do, I might just have to check out the black market for steroids. lol. Okay, I won't go that far, but I do know that I can feel better now. I know that the pain is not the way that I have to live. Would I have liked to do it the natural way, yes. But sometimes, you just have to do what you have to do. I also know now, not to be so stubborn. Sometimes the Dr. does know what he's talking about.
So until next time,
Small Farm Girl, pain free, finally